Braindead

Last week was the first 80 hour work week of my life. That's double of what I'm supposed to average! I kept thinking of all the John Grisham novels I read, and wondered how people could work for 80 hours in a week. Yet, it wasn't tiring, and had I been able to explain it to my family, I probably would have worked longer! Work isn't always tiring. In fact, if you remotely enjoy your work, its actually fun.

I'm handling 4 different pieces of code at once. I manage to confuse my manager sometimes, and I always have something to do! (That does not mean that I'm always doing something..) Everyday when I come back home, I feel braindead. People talk to me and I listen in a trance, not paying attention, not registering anything. In my head, I'm subconsciously figuring out the next change I have to make in the code in order to make it work right. I actually figured one mistake out while I was asleep! I did remember the story we were told about the discovery of the structure of Benzene when I woke up!

Yet, all around me, I see people who would give an arm and a leg to leave their work and go back home, do a MBA. Anything. Do they realize that they still have to work no matter what? I didn't claim that the work I do is interesting. Infact, the last 80 hour! week, I did the most boring possible work, and you may find me jumping in peoples cubes in office complaining that I'm going mad, but I'm not really.

So, will changing my profile or education gurantee that I have an easier life?, a more interesting life? or a more fulfilling life? Unfortunately, life will have no direction until I can answer those questions, and I don't think I can answer them till my life has some direction.

Till then, I will go on hoping that either the chicken or the egg shows up!

Labels: Life